Observation

Whenever I have an appointment with the assisted conception unit, I always make the effort to dress smartly. I don't know what my rational is behind it, I just feel uncomfortable rocking up in my jeans and converse. This thing of mine is completely ridiculous. Every time I'm in the waiting room I always see 'professional' looking couples, men in shirts and trousers and woman who look like they've walked straight from their CEO job and into the hospital. It's funny you never see the tracksuit wearing, thing on show, fag in mouth woman in there (they're all at home with their 4 kids). I wonder if these 'professional' couples all do exactly the same as me? I believe the reason I do it is because I look so young, and at 25 could easily pass for a fresh faced 20 year old, and for some reason I think people in the waiting room will judge me for this. Dressing in my smartest work wear will, in some way, help me to portray myself as some sort of mature adult who deserves to have a child. I also only have 'adult' conversation with Marts while in the waiting room, we discuss work, the house, food shopping, holidays etc... And leave the drunken tales from the weekend, playing our 'who can be the most inappropriate in a public place' game and silly name calling until we get safely back into the car. Like its some sort of competition, if the FS thinks I'm young and immature whereas there is a very serious and mature couple in the room next door, they'll get the good embryologist, they'll get all the care taken with the semen washes.

I always, obviously, look at every other couple in there and think "why are they here?".