Spoke too soon....

At our appointment on Wednesday my follie was only measuring 10mm, the doctor said it should grow around 2mm a day so come back in on Saturday and it should hopefully be around 15-16, which would make ovulation Monday and 5dt Friday. So off we went yesterday, hopped onto the bed, legs in the air waiting to see what this little follie was up to. Well, it was now only measuring 13mm, so a little on the small side and still had some growing to do, frustrating, but back on Monday. I was getting dressed when it dawned on me that ovulation day would very, very likely be Tuesday. This would make day 5 transfer a Sunday, the only day of the week the clinic is closed, which would mean our FET would be cancelled and we'd have to try again next month. Seriously?! Nine months of treatments, two cancelled IVF cycles and now a possible cancelled FET? We're on our third treatment cycle and so far haven't made it more than half way with any of them. Needless to say I spent yesterday crying, screaming and generally hating the world. There zero way of knowing how big this follie will have grown by tomorrow, couples with the fact that they also don't know how big my body lets them get before starting my LH surge. It can be anywhere between 18-28mm. But I know my body and I always ovulate on day 17 (Tuesday) please keep your fingers crossed that this month will be different, and we'll actually make it through one cycle without cancellation.

This week!

Has been the slowest moving week in the history of weeks. Every day seems to have lasted a week in itself! I don't know if it's because I'm waiting for the hectic-ness of FET next week, or because I have 2 weeks holiday coming up. My 2 weeks holiday start next Thursday, transfer should be Friday which means I will be spending my whole TWW away from work! Completely accidental, holiday was booked months ago. I will be spending 2 days at a spa with my best friend, 4 days at home with marts as we have a long bank holiday weekend, then 4 days in Poland. The day before we fly to Poland will be 7dp5dt...to test or not to test, that is the question. They have remarkably cheap beer in Poland...

FER first scan

Not much to report. CD11 so wasn't expecting them to find follies etc...for a good 3-4 days or so. Lining is 'lovely', nice and thick and perfect all the way around. Follies still growing, but one dominant one appearing on my right ovary to watch for. Lots and lots of little follies! Back for my next scan on Saturday and hopefully ovulation will be close. That's when things really get going. They're hoping to transfer next Friday. Let's see.

Mothers Day

I've calculated that this is our third Mother's Day since we started TTC, and that we're 3 months away from 4 years. But to be quite honest, I've stopped counting. I got a big card and purple flowers from the cats (really!) and while Marts goes to visit MIL et al, I'll be sat at home nursing the worst AF cramps I've had in a while. To everyone else it's Mother's Day, to me, it's CD1 of our FET :)

FER round One

To call it a nurse consultation would be a bit far fetched... We walked into a room, the nurse asked of I had 'normal' cycles and ovulated, then when I said yes informed us we would be doing natural cycle FER and that was about it! We wait for AF to arrive (in around 2 days as I've stopped my pills today) then we can the clinical and they do nothing until day 11. No injections. No scans. No daily phone calls. Just go in few days before natural ovulation so they can check my follies, wait to see when one is about the right size and take bloods. Use bloods to show my LH surge and then check again the next day to see if ovulation has occurred (so 1dpo follows) or if it will occur the following day. Then they defrost the embies and replace them on the day they were frozen. So one day5 blast will be joining us 5 days after ovulation is detected. No further drugs, no more tests, just let the body do what it natural does and hope the little one sticks. I feel like I should be doing more?! Excited. Nervous. Excited. Nervous. Excited. Nervous.

26th March already?!!!

It's our FER consultation tomorrow afternoon. Can you believe it's been 5 weeks since we had the trauma of egg collection and subsequent OHSS?! I have successfully managed to delay AF, and I called the clinic this afternoon to ask how soon after our consultation we could start treatment. They said my first period after, whether that was the day after consultation or the week after. So I guess, unless AF arrives tonight...we're starting our frozen cycle next week. I have 4 weeks to achieve my life goal of getting pregnant at 25....

I've been quiet lately...

For no particular reason other than work and sleep has taken over. Work is really busy currently, medical exams going on for all years so plenty of need for my student support expertise. Despite the business, I still love my job. Remember how much I hated my old job?! I spoke with my new manager today and he's very supportive of helping me move up the ranks. I'be signed up to a training programme called 'Springboard' which is management training especially for woman. He even encouraged me to look into masters and PG Cert courses to further my career. Makes a nice change! It's now 3 weeks until our FER appointment, and I have my progesterone pill to delay AF for a max of 17 days. This means when we have our appointment AF COULD be due either the week after or 2 weeks after, fingers tightly crossed we can start then. This means transfer will be just before we jet off to Poland for my birthday, so that should take my mind off of it. However, knowing our luck. I do have a juggling feeling they "won't be able to fit is in" two weeks after our appointment and we'll end up waiting until may anyway... I miss my snowflakes! They're SO far away! In other news, Martins cousin is pregnant again (the one who intentionally tried to miscarry her second she didn't want) I don't know what makes me angrier. The fact she's pregnant and doesn't deserve it, or the fact she's 22 weeks and I had to find out from a Facebook update?! Sorry for the dull update. My life is quite dull currently and I'm still struggling slightly with my babies (I know they're not babies, but they are!) being kept so far from me :( Second acupuncture appointment on Monday, she is so good! I love acupuncture!! I spent the rest of the day trying not to fall asleep! I recommend to anyone! P.s Jess I can't read your blog! I need a birth story pronto! Welcome to the world little Connor!