Not much to report, just wanted to write that title ;)
Yesterday I resisted the urge to test and felt absolutely fine with it! So somewhere deep inside I must be calm.
More cramping last night so this little guy is definitely tunnelling in, hopefully for the long haul!
Slept like a log again last night. A solid 9 hours before the alarm went off this morning which feels so good!
I don't know if this is hormone/preggo related but I'm waking up STARVING every morning. Seriously, I want a fry up as soon as I get out of bed. Constipation has also jumped on for the journey - not fun!
We had to tell people who know about treatment last night that we were pregnant. It was terrifying. Everyone is ecstatic, but it makes is so nervous knowing people know. Apart from the people that I want to know I.e. People who read my blog!
2 weeks today til we get to see a little heart beating - I don't know how I'm going to hold on that long!
P.s. A request from me: unless we are friends (I.e. Text me, regularly comment on my blog etc...) can I please ask you don't mention our pregnancy and me by name in anything you write online. Blogs are surprisingly easy to find, and to be frank, it isn't your news or right to share it. Especially if we don't speak and at 4weeks pregnant we are no way set for the next 9 months. (Not my commenters, who's support I adore!)
Friday, 6 June 2014
Thursday, 5 June 2014
Beta #1 is in
Went for the dreaded blood test this morning after last nights digi allowed me to have the best nights sleep in a long time.
When we arrived it was one of our favourite nurses, Julie, who called us through. She was there for both of our transfers so she knows us well/me intimately.
She asked if we had tested and said her congratulations, then explained that the magic number they like to see at 9dp5dt is 75+. If its 75 or below they request patients come back 2 days later to see if HCG is increasing, but if its 75+ they no longer request patients do another beta. The consultants at the clinic think it is unnecessary and caused un-needed stress, and a level of 75+ shows a great starting point with not much call for worry. Their research shows betas of 100+ have an 80% chance of becoming full-term, healthy pregnancies. SOOOOO if you get a beta of 75+ they book you in for your first scan at 6-7weeks to see whats going on and hopefully hear a heart beat.
Our is 94!!!!!
The first time I've cried is when I got off the phone from the clinic. The relief is unbelievable.
June 20th is our first scan.
This is absolutely surreal.
When we arrived it was one of our favourite nurses, Julie, who called us through. She was there for both of our transfers so she knows us well/me intimately.
She asked if we had tested and said her congratulations, then explained that the magic number they like to see at 9dp5dt is 75+. If its 75 or below they request patients come back 2 days later to see if HCG is increasing, but if its 75+ they no longer request patients do another beta. The consultants at the clinic think it is unnecessary and caused un-needed stress, and a level of 75+ shows a great starting point with not much call for worry. Their research shows betas of 100+ have an 80% chance of becoming full-term, healthy pregnancies. SOOOOO if you get a beta of 75+ they book you in for your first scan at 6-7weeks to see whats going on and hopefully hear a heart beat.
Our is 94!!!!!
The first time I've cried is when I got off the phone from the clinic. The relief is unbelievable.
June 20th is our first scan.
This is absolutely surreal.
Wednesday, 4 June 2014
Someone tie me up
I know I shouldn't, but check out those gorgeous lines!
BFP 8.5dp5dt.
After drinking 2 litres of water and peeing every hour this afternoon. Did manage to hold for 3 hours before getting this.
Maybe I am pregnant
8dp5dt
7dp5dt = top
8dp5dt = bottom
(Sorry Jess, no Sharpie in the house! I plan on stealing one from work for future use)
Obviously this morning I wanted to see the darkest positive that ever was, but I'd say for a gap of 24hours between tests there is some progression. Agreed?
We've waited so very long to get here and now I'm petrified! I won't feel a little better until my beta tomorrow - as soon as I hear the nurse say "it's positive!" Over the phone I might start believing it a little more.
Symptom wise:
1) Cramps are still very much with me. A little more on and off than they were between 4-7dpt but every so often I get a good one that reminds me what's going on.
2) Boobs are bigger and heavier, but not as sore as I thought they would be. The type of soreness I am experiencing though is very different to any I've experienced before.
3) Thirst. Actually, I don't know if it's thirst or dry mouth (is there a difference?) but I'm drinking tons of water/squash and never getting enough.
4) Peeing. More to do with the thirst I should imagine, there's not enough going on down there to account for the hourly trips to the bathroom.
5) Hot!! So very warm constantly! Last night I fell asleep only to wake up an hour later feeling like my bed had been moved to the centre of the earth. Poor Martin spent the night in the guest bedroom as sleeping in a bed with him when I'm so hot is impossible.
That's about it. I'm numb. It doesn't feel like this is happening to me. I can't stop thinking about everything! One more day until beta and then I'm hoping some of this worry begins to fade, or at least gets replaced with a worry for first scan.
Cling on little one! You're causing me enough pain in there, you better be buried deep!!
Tuesday, 3 June 2014
Monday, 2 June 2014
6dp5dt
Cramps that started on 4dpt have been pretty much constant since then. Yesterday I got off the sofa and had a awful shooting pain to the right of my uterus. I keep panicking that it's AF gearing up to arrive but I keep convincing myself that if it was, after 2 days or cramps I'd be spotting by now, which I'm not.
Boob soreness is up to around a 5-6/10 and only on the undersides, bruised from the nipple downward (sounds like a really cheesy erotic book title).
Mixed emotions. Don't know what to think. I know I feel sick thinking about POAS but I don't know how much longer I can hold off!
Boob soreness is up to around a 5-6/10 and only on the undersides, bruised from the nipple downward (sounds like a really cheesy erotic book title).
Mixed emotions. Don't know what to think. I know I feel sick thinking about POAS but I don't know how much longer I can hold off!
Sunday, 1 June 2014
5dp5dt
Did I POAS?
No, I'm being strong.
Yesterday was an awful awful day! Not just my miserable mood, but the car went for the MOT (yearly test needed to declare it's safe and fit to drive) and it passed, but I have two back tyres and rear brake discs to replace, not a cheap job! Then we went to IKEA and I was surrounded by heavily pregnant woman; seriously?! I get needing to shop for baby or nursery things, but they were everywhere! Kitchen section, living room section, picture frame area etc...but I did feel better after some meatballs.
Then that evening we came home to hang our new pictures above the fireplace, removed an old one, took out the picture hook holding it up and a lovely whoosh of gas followed it!
Great. So now we have a gas leak/hole in the fire flue which requires knocking a whole in the wall to fix, another quiet expensive job!
But...my cramps returning last night, dull aches with painful pulls every so often and I woke up this morning and they're still here. Seriously hoping it's not AF gearing up for an early arrival! Boobs about a 4/10 on the tender scale, nothing anyone but a crazy woman would pay attention to.
My dad and grandparents are coming over to dinner tonight and my Nanan and I ALWAYS share a bottle of wine over dinner. Need to think of some good excuses for not drinking without getting asked too much? (My dad knows about our IF but I haven't told him about this on going round of treatments. He gets upset and worries too much and without my Mum has nobody to really rely on, so I keep it quiet til we have news good or bad)
No, I'm being strong.
Yesterday was an awful awful day! Not just my miserable mood, but the car went for the MOT (yearly test needed to declare it's safe and fit to drive) and it passed, but I have two back tyres and rear brake discs to replace, not a cheap job! Then we went to IKEA and I was surrounded by heavily pregnant woman; seriously?! I get needing to shop for baby or nursery things, but they were everywhere! Kitchen section, living room section, picture frame area etc...but I did feel better after some meatballs.
Then that evening we came home to hang our new pictures above the fireplace, removed an old one, took out the picture hook holding it up and a lovely whoosh of gas followed it!
Great. So now we have a gas leak/hole in the fire flue which requires knocking a whole in the wall to fix, another quiet expensive job!
But...my cramps returning last night, dull aches with painful pulls every so often and I woke up this morning and they're still here. Seriously hoping it's not AF gearing up for an early arrival! Boobs about a 4/10 on the tender scale, nothing anyone but a crazy woman would pay attention to.
My dad and grandparents are coming over to dinner tonight and my Nanan and I ALWAYS share a bottle of wine over dinner. Need to think of some good excuses for not drinking without getting asked too much? (My dad knows about our IF but I haven't told him about this on going round of treatments. He gets upset and worries too much and without my Mum has nobody to really rely on, so I keep it quiet til we have news good or bad)
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