September 4th. 2 years since our miscarriage.
I can't believe it's 2 years later and here we are.
Yesterday I read a piece on my new favourite blog (The Infertility Therapist), whereby she tries to describe infertility and what it's like.
She said that having infertility, as a disease, is like falling down a lift/elevator shaft, but at a painfully slow pace. It's all very dark and you can't see where you're going, nor how far you've come. You know that eventually you will reach the bottom, but while you're falling you have no idea how long it will be before you get there. Weeks, months, years or never. You may meet other people who are also in the lift shaft, but all moving at different speeds. Some will reach the bottom quickly, some will move slower than you, but it doesn't matter because while you're free failing in the dark, you simply do not possess the ability to see the end. More importantly, when you do reach the end, it's just as important to remember that there are still people in free fall and without knowing what speed they're travelling, you can't offer and insight into their fall.
I felt that was a very fitting description.
Brilliant analogoy! I always thought of a dark tunnel, that you're trying to find your way out of. But falling down a dark elevator shaft fits infertility better. It certainly captures the fear and free falling you're doing, from which no one can catch you.
ReplyDeleteHmmm...I might have to go have another gander at that blog. Great analogoy indeed! ;)
ReplyDeleteI'm slightly obsessed with it. It's like online therapy. I hit a 'bad patch' and read a few entries and I feel like im not going crazy.
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http://theinfertilitytherapist.blogspot.co.uk/2013/07/tales-from-other-side-setting-realistic.html?m=1
Would ring true for you, Jax and KK. Xx
Just read a few more of her entries. You can really tell that she's walked the walk. Very good reads.
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