Sunday blues

It's a down day today. I don't know why, well I do, but I'm usually so good at shaking off the bad feelings and upset and ignoring it long enough to pain a smile, but today I'm not painting anything.

I'm pretty sure there's another family (in laws) pregnancy announcement coming up, their second nonetheless, and here we are, still stuck in the rut. If I'm right,, and I usually am, they will have managed two children in the time we've been trying to have just one. It's not any of my business, it's their life, their decision, nothing to do with us and our lives what so ever. But sometimes you can't help bit sit back and just think FUCK YOU LIFE. What have we done so wrong, that were getting the shitty end of the stick? We're both educated, we both work damn hard, we run a successful home, and financially comfortable but no... We're still getting slapped in the face with whatever life thinks its playing at.

Something as stupid as my brother in law and his girlfriend buying a house sets me off. It's like every couple around me are making plans for life, friends are buying houses, settling down, planning weddings etc... And it's like we've got so far and now we're just stuck where we are for an indefinite amount of time. I hate being all "look at me, life is so bad, feel sorry for me and pity me" but, yeah!! I guess we were lucky enough to fall in love and be the first couple out of our friends to get married, quite young, at 22. The only downside to this is now we've been told not to pass go and straight to jail, while the people around us as zooming round collecting everything we want.