I feel at the minute, family wise, the same shit just goes around and around in circles and never actually gets truly resolved. After 6 months of the same behaviour time and time again, I'm starting to give up hope of anything ever really changing, ever.
I don't know if I can physically spend the next 60+ years of my life doing this time and time and time again. Sigh. Everyone knows I love Martin with every fibre of my being, and then some stolen from others, but so far the main difficulty (re-occurring) in our marriage is family. It's now a game of attrition - who's going to crack first, them or me....I've already got some hairline fractures.
Not to mention it stresses me out ridiculous amounts. I can physically feel my heartbeat rising and my blood pressure increasing - and we need to go through IVF as physically fit as possible? Thank you very much
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ReplyDeleteWhat does Martin think about all of this? Does he feel the same way? Maybe there's a strategy you can come up with, together. I want to say, f*ck them and think of yourselves but I know that's easier said than done.
In the mean time, we should brainstorm some relaxation techniques (like I'm the one to be giving that advice). Do you have any coverage for massage or acupuncture?
I don't have any cover for acupuncture, however I do work with the acupuncture students at the university so can get discount sessions with them. I am tempted, however I don't get on particularly well with the acupuncturist, so having to go in there and divulge all of my personal information is putting me off. There is a local acupuncture clinic not far from here, but we're talking £200 a month to have appointments during IVF! Eeeek.
DeleteOh geez, what's a certain someone spouting off about now?
ReplyDeleteI like how you know exactly what I mean, without me having to say the words. Just the usual, I'm just too hormonal to deal with it this month!
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