Im so rubbish at updating, I know

Aloha,

So its been quite a while since I last updated, for any of you that do check this every so often (hello!) I apologise that you haven't had any mad rambling to read for a while.

So as you know in the past month we have moved house, and I have started a new job, hence why this has kind of gone on the back burner. Well in my last 'blog' i was 10DPO and as there is no happy news blog, you are right to assume that good old mother nature arrived right on time with my monthly gift. Thanks for that. So we are officially into month 29. This month feels good, I don't know why, just does. I love my new job, I love my new house, we're not stressed or tired all the time like we used to be in our old house, our sex life now exists (sorry friends a family) and things just feel good. If you know what I mean. So i'm feeling quite content with how this month will go.

Clomid round 3 has been taken, hot flushes are getting worse with every cycle, particularly at night when I feel like I want to claw my skin off just so I can get cooler! I also changed the days I took clomid this month (naughty naughty!) as 3-7 seems to have higher success rates than 2-6. Something to do with it producing more 'mature' eggs than more eggs in general, so we'll see how this goes. My poor hair is also falling out left right and centre, thanks hormone treatments, so now not only am I infertile, but at this rate i'm going to be a bald infertile as well! I suppose it would save money on shampoo and time straightening my hair...

Anyway as for the TTC at the minute, well I am in my 12-24hours til ovulation window after getting the darkest positive ovulation test ever this morning, and my ovaries are causing me pain so I know I'm about to lay an egg (Or two, or three depending on how good the clomid has worked) so fingers crossed this one is a good 'un! (Or two....twins would be great, saves us having to do all this again when we want a second child).

This might make people feel all funny inside, but it fascinates me. I've spent 2 years now thinking about this magical ovulation moment, but never actually thought about what was going on. This photograph was taken of a woman who was in surgery for a hysterectomy, and when she was opened up the doctor realised she was actively ovulating right there on the table. So off he popped to grab the camera and viola, a real life photograph of the female body in action!

Good thing is that this week, despite being up at 6am every morning for work, we've found plenty of time for 'husband and wife time' so hopefully the egg won't stand a chance against the barrage of swimmers that should be laying in wait for it! Interesting fact, did you know that when sperm is in a womans body, it actually goes to sleep and lays dormant in the uterus, then when an egg is released, the hormones wake the sperm up, and off they swim! Hence why you can get pregnant up to 5 days before you actually ovulate, because they are persistent little buggers! However, thinking about this, maybe our problem is that the sperm don't wake up again, Martin has always been difficult to wake.....

Ok thats enough about sperm and eggs, my lovely husband is now cooking me enchiladas in the kitchen, and then a nice night curled up together in front of crap Sunday TV awaits I think!

I'm baaack!

Hello!

Well i've been away from the internet for a while as last weekend my husband and I moved into our lovely new house, which doesn't yet have internet connection. After 10 days of no internet access I caved and decided to pay £5 for a day of wifi internet to keep me sane while I'm at home on my own. Hurrah!!

So aside from the usual, we have a new home!! yay! I got a new job with a university in Manchester and my husband still works in our home town of Sheffield so we moved half way in between the two, Holmfirth. We're in Last of the summer wine territory!

Isn't it oh so very pretty?? Not that we've had one dry day since we moved in (lovely British Summer) we're still in the process of sorting out the house, but it's getting more homely as we go on. Here's our new abode 

We love love LOVE it here, and cant wait to get properly settled and hopefully have a fresh new start in our new home (we even have a second bedroom for the first time...hopefully it'll bring us some luck eh?)

Well back to normal business, I am now 10 days past ovulation and no sign of a pregnancy this month, so I goes we're onto month number...29 I think, I don't know I've lost count. In good news I think I'm becoming a bit numb to the pain now, when I did the HPT this morning and I was slapped in the face b a BFN, I didn't take it apart, I didn't hold it up to the light, I just pulled a face and threw it in the bin. Waiting for AF to arrive so we can start month number 3 of clomid. I'm going to change my climid days from 2-6 to 3-7 also, as I hear thats more successful so we'll see.

In good news my medical records finally made it from my old doctor down south to my new doctor up north, which means yesterday we were referred to our new fertility specialist to pick up where we left off. So excited! Sheffield fertility centre has a brilliant reputation so I'm hoping we get somewhere with this. So in my calculations it will be around 3 months until we get an appointment (god bless NHS) so we should know what our next steps are by September! I'm hoping they go straight for IUI so we can skip all of these months of 'letting nature take it's corse' because frankly it isn't working! On the upside if we are given IUI on the NHS then we can get rid off all the stress that goes along with ovulation week, and just let the hospital do it for us, hurrah!!

My second piece of news, you have heard me talk about a website I was part of many times in this blog, and it provided me with lots of support during my infertility journey, until recently. There were lots of pregnant woman and mothers coming into the Long Term Trying to Conceive area telling us infertile woman to grow up, stop being so bitter towards pregnant woman blah blah blah and the sad thing is the moderators and admin of the board seemed to agree with them. How dare they?! I'm sorry but I frankly don't care how many children you have or how many times you've been pregnant, YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE TO HAVE INFERTILITY as so many of thee pregnant woman do. Bugger off, go and hug your children and feed your babies and leave me to moan and cry and hate the world for not letting me have something that comes so easy to you!

Anyway, me and a few friends I had met on there decided enough was enough, and we made our own support website/forum! We run it, with many of us as moderators (me included) and admin so we can keep an eye on whats going on, who's posting what etc... and although we're a bunch of infertile betties, the website is designed for all kinds of parents. New parents, prospective parents, people trying to get pregnant and people who can't get pregnant.

Please have a look, it's still in its infant and still a new website but once it gets up and running we'll be great. We're very proud of it and hope you'll like it.

Hearts of Mummies