Snowy weekend?

So this is my weather forecast for this weekend. Granted, compared to what America and Canada cope with its nothing, but we're due to have up to 40cm of snow over the next two days starting from midnight tonight. My new home is in the middle of nowhere (literally!) and we are surrounded by moor land. Snow means chaos! I have to leave home at 6am tomorrow morning to get to work, getting back at 6pm after 12hours of heavy snow may prove to be interesting! 

This was my route home the last time we had heavy snow. 

Wish me luck! 

Is it spring yet??

Yawn. So tired. Was woken up by an annoying ginger howling loudly outside my bedroom door this morning at 4am, so not in the mood for my 3 hour long meeting with all my seniors in 15mins.

Finally got through to my FS on the phone yesterday, after constant phone calls and non returned messages I called at 4.45pm not expecting anyone to answer. Sure enough the doctor herself picked up the phone, within 30 seconds we have had out IUI referral sent to the Assisted Conception Unit. Now just to wait and see what's next - I'm going for end of April start.

I hate myself this month for having sex when I ovulated. I'm symptom spotting (slap me) my nipples feel like they're trying to claw their way out of my bra. But nothing more. I'm bored of this life now, I just want AF to show and to eat easter eggs and gorge on fatty food like I have done previously.

I'm eating again - HURRAH! My mixture of 3 different gastro-happy pills 3 times a day and codeine 3 times a day is making me human again, I celebrating with bacon wrapped frankfurters with ketchup and mustard last night. Delicious.

Its also the first day of spring today, and I woke up to a blizzard outside my house, we left with around 3 inches of snow and still falling, get to work 30 miles away and its a balmy spring day. People think I'm crazy at work when I talk about the snow we're having at home. We also have heavy snow forecast for the next 3 days, lets see if we can make the sub zero temperatures last into April!

I know have to go and spend 3 hours sat in a room with all of my superiors and look excited about work that has nothing to do with me what so ever. Joy!

xxxx

p.s. If you get a second I want everyone to send positive thought to a friend of mine who is currently going through IVF. She deserves this, and I want her to know everyone is behind her 110%. <3

If I was a car, I'd be a 20 year old ford

So I went to the hospital today for my gastroscope. I was 99% certain I was going to be sedated after the awful experience I had last night, but decided to be brave at the end and went totally sober and just had my throat numbed.

Still one of the most awful things I've ever had to do!

So?..... My ulcers are/have healed. She can see 3 healed nicely and one well in the way to being healed (yay!) but still have swelling and inflammation of the stomach, and just to add insult to injury I now have a moderate hatial hernia! Hurrah! So that would explain the stomach pain since part of my stomach is now poking through my diaphragm!!

I'm also waging war against my FS's secretary. You recall I called her the week before last to arrange a phone consultation with FS and get IUI rolling.. Well a week goes by and still no phone call, I decided not to chase it up as we're not in a huge rush and doctors are busy people. Yesterday I received a letter from the FS with an appointment for JUNE!!! Fucking June?! That stupid bitch decided that she couldn't be arsed to contact the doctor, and took it upon herself to just make another appointment for us. She can fuck right off if she thinks I'm going to let this one slide, I have already made 2 very angry phone calls and left a message for her to call me back first thing on Monday so we can clear up this obvious misunderstanding. Pfffffft! June?!

Hurrah!

I had my hospital appointment with the upper GI specilist on Monday. It was as I expected. A female doctor/surgeon practically ran into the room, still dressed for theatre, spoke with me about my symptoms for 5 minutes and said there was nothing she could do until I has another gastroscopy carried out. Great. The waiting list for gastroscopies is around 5 weeks, so I left there feeling very deflated, in pain and frankly more than a little upset.

Luckily, I decided to try taking IBS medication this weekend, as I read online it can help to calm down the spasms the stomach goes into when you're having an ulcer attack. Even though I don't suffer from IBS, the medication is working great! I can eat now, and I haven't had to induce vomiting for the past 4 days. This is great!

I just recieved a phone call saying they have had a last minute cancellation and can do an gastroscopy THIS FRIDAY, as in not tomorrow, the day after! Im more than thrilled! It's taken me 3 months to get a 5 minute appointment, and 4 days to get an appointment for a preocedure to be carried out. Only 2 problems with this;

 1) we're handing the keys of our old home back to the landlord at 12.30pm on Friday, my appointment is at 2.30pm, so need to ask them nicely to move that forward.

2) As of this moment I am not allowed to take any medication for my stomach what so ever. Sob. Although, in reality you are supposed to stop medication for 10 days before a gastroscopy, which would be living hell, but the nurse assured me that given I'm still in pain, two days without medication will be enough for the doctor to get a decent idea of whats going on. Hello again vomiting! But I don't care, after 3 months I can cope with the pain for 2 more days!

In other news - For some reason this month we have actively TTC. Maybe it's because it's the month before IUI so it's sort of our last chance, or maybe it's because i made the mistake of buying OPKS? I didn't do OPKs but as my cycles are so regular I know I was due to ovulate yesterday, Sunday night we had the best sex we had had in a while. You know the full on passionate-i-need-you-right-now kinda of sex. Then both collapsed and fell asleep with me still propped up on a pillow (I'm also positive NOTHING came back out, at all..I don't know where it went or what its doing, but it didn't make a reappearence after sex...)

Anyway, yesterday I had cramps so awfully bad I had to sit down and take a double dose of paracetamol. My legs were in pain the cramps were so bad - had I not have been CD17 I would have been awaiting AF. Anyway, I got home that night and did an OPK and sure enough it was as negative and negative can be, not even a hint of a second line, which only ever happens the day after I usually get a +OPK. So I think I can safely assume I ovulated between 3-5pm yesterday afternoon (specific hey!) which was around 17hours after out marathon sex session. I don't even know why I'm hoping - come 26th March I will be back here complaining of AF cramps!

x

I've been away too long

So last week I ordered my first set of HPTs and OPKs in preparation for IUI. They arrived yesterday, I decided that I am due to ovulate on Friday so I would do some OPKs and we would actually time sex this month as it's our last shot at this whole natural pregnancy malarky!

So off I go to the bathroom with my trusty pee glass and one HPT and OPK in each hand (I can't resist peeing on things, despite being CD 13 and clearly not pregnant)

Fast forward 10 minute to be almost having a heart attack when I got my green and blue ends mixed up on the tests. Ha. I spent 30 seconds confused to shit staring at my OPK thinking it was a HPT...

Seriously, this is what my life has become. Unless you're been through TTC, that will make no sense to you what so ever!!

The ball is rolling...

Phone call complete.

Notes have been sent for, FS is going to give us a call back and then off we go.

IUI Number one should be April 29th 2013 - The day after I turn 25. I always said I would wait until I was 25 to have kids, an omen?

I feel brilliant!

Honestly, I do today!

This week has been hell health wise and I've had to take 3 days off work to try and get myself back to normal. I passed out on Monday due to not eating or drinking hardly anything since Thursday because of my stomach.

Tuesday and Wednesday were the worst days ever, I was in agony with my stomach, but knew I had to eat and drink so was forcing myself to keep stuff down and then sobbing in agony curled up in a ball. Yesterday was particularly bad, although I managed to eat a chicken sandwich (gluten free of course) and had some stomach pain last night before bed but managed to sleep.

I woke up this morning and nothing! No pain, no niggles, no aches, I feel great! My stomach is rumbling in the normal healthy way! Granted it's only 11.57am and I haven't eaten anything yet, but the past 3 days I've woken up in agony. Hopefully this is a sign of things starting to get better, just in time for my hospital appointment on Monday! Hurrah!

I'm also in the process of packing up all my belongings as we are moving house this weekend :( sob. I hate moving - well no, I LOVE moving into a new home, I hate packing and unpacking. All the big items of furniture like the sofas, beds, book cases etc... are being moved on Saturday and we will live in the old house for another week with nothing but a mattress on the floor and some clothes for a week. Fun!

Isn't this supposed to be a baby making blog?

Oh yeah. Been a while since I mentioned anything productive to do with our quest to create a bambino. Well I had my cardiology appointment last Monday and I should have called the FS 3 days ago to schedule a phone consultation and get the go ahead for IUI. So far I haven't done that. I'm using the excuse that I can't do IUI until my stomach problems are sorted out, but I do think part of my subconscious is trying to protect me from everything that comes along with IUI.

It's been 5 Months since we were actively TTC and it's been great! No OPKs, no timed sex and mostly no disappointment. So going back to TWW, OPKs and HPTs will be a bummer. But it has to be done...

I'm going to make the call right now...